HEY AGAIN!
I am really enjoying this rumbling thunderstorm today! We haven't had a good long rain all summer! I love the smell of rain and love the coolness that it has brought us after some HOT AND HUMID DAYS!
Work is again kinda slow today... we've had a few patients come in. One is a young male contact lenses wearer who also has SEVERE seasonal allergies. Basically, his underlids looked like raw hamburger because of the poor contact lenses hygiene and allergic reactions... ICK! Moral of this story... TAKE CARE OF YOUR CONTACTS... love Jocelyn ;)
Today, actually I have a specific question that I want to blog about. In all honesty, it is still not clear in my own head. I'm hoping that while writing this, it will become more clear.
Is anyone happy here? I mean REALLY happy... fully satisfied... complete. And I don't mean you have MOMENTS of happiness... I mean... are you ALWAYS HAPPY??? I'm assuming anyone who reads this will say no, just as I do. But it is a HUGE bummer right? I mean, isn't that what we are supposed to find? We are supposed to find a job, family, lifestyle, health, and purpose in our lives and when/if we do we will be happy.... at least that's what I hear...
I struggle with discontentment.... ALL THE TIME! Whether it is in my job, in my husband, in my body weight or fitness goals, and in our current financial state. But now I think I know why... I knew that Christ was supposed to fulfill me and give me purpose, but I was assuming that God would use these earthly things to make me happy while I was serving Him and bringing Him glory. I see my flaw in expecting these worldly things to make me happy... even though I used the excuse that God would use them to make me happy... (sorry if that is confusing)
Because worldly things can not make me happy, but I live in this world, am I still to look for happiness?
The conclusion that I came to was... NOPE... (I bet I've got you wondering now...).
I am ok with not being truly happy here on earth. I would like to share another quote from Max Lucado's book "When God Whispers Your Name." (Yes, I'm still reading it)
"The only ultimate disaster that can befall us, I have come to realize, is to feel ourselves to be home on earth. As long as we are aliens, we cannot forget our homeland."
"Unhappiness on earth cultivates a hunger for heaven. By gracing us with a deep dissatisfaction, God holds our attention... We are not happy here because we are not at home here. We are not happy here because we are not supposed to be happy here. We are 'like foreigners and strangers in this world' (1 Pet. 2:11)"
IT'S OK IF I'M NOT HAPPY! For some reason... I thought I was supposed to be happy. But my deep longing from something more is God telling me that there IS something more... full fellowship with Jesus in heaven... wow... pretty sure I will be happy there!
The moments in our lives like our wedding day, laughs, sunshine on our backs are only glimpses of what is in store for those who surrender their lives to Christ.
"God flirts with us. He tantalizes us. He romances us. Those moments are appetizers for the dish that is to come."
God has been sooo gracious to share this with me today... I am beginning to understand being content without happiness! Don't get me wrong... I AM JOYFUL... but I'm not happy... and that's ok!
"No one has ever imagined what God has prepared for those who love him." (1 Cor. 2:9)
GET EXCITED!
